Anyone who says Depression is just in the mind is an uneducated idiot. Part of it is technically in the brain but it effects you physically, a great deal too. Depending on how severe your depression is, symptoms can vary. It is massively frustrating that mental health issues sometimes aren’t classed as a disability because as well as actual physical illnesses, they can hinder the way you think, the way you perform actions on a daily basis and can make simple things such as brushing your teeth a very difficult task. I’m going to list and give information on some of the effects that people can suffer with.
INCREASED ACHES & PAINS – I am a genius in this department, there literally is not one day when something isn’t physically hurting. At one point I was getting really worried, some days I can have really bad headaches and migraines that I just cannot stand to open my eyes to having constant shooting pains in my arms and my legs, as well as just genuinely feeling sick. I have been to see a doctor multiple times because of this, I got the same answer every time; “Nothing wrong, seems fine on this end just take it easy”. THE SAME THING EVERY DAMN TIME. I have put up with it for years so I’m used to it now and can put up with it, but sometimes the pain is so bad that I have to hit or nip myself really hard to distract me from the pain. The pains can effect anywhere on your body so if this is a symptom and you don’t suffer with a mental health problem and nothing seems to be wrong, get a second opinion, you never know.
CHRONIC FATIGUE – There are three different phases to this symptom which are:
1. MILD – You’re able to care for yourself fine and can complete simple daily tasks but you may need days off from work to rest.
2. MODERATE – This is where you have reduced mobility, where you really struggle with things such as; eating, going out, walking places, bathing etc. You will experience disturbed sleep patterns where you may not be able to sleep at night and have to sleep through the day or having short or longer cycles of sleep than usual.
3. SEVERE – This is where it gets really difficult to even deal with minimal daily tasks such as getting out of bed, going to the toilet, bathing, brushing teeth, talking, ignoring responsibilities, sleeping all day AND night and never moving from your bed. This also causes you to have difficulty concentrating, for example, if you’re at work or school and you need to figure something simple out such as; working out a Maths question or deciding what task you need to do next at work. Your mind will go completely blank and you get really confused and forget what you even need to do. You try to take things slow because you feel like you’re panicking for no reason and that’s when the Anxiety starts to set in. Such little and simple tasks an able person can perform within 1 minute can take you from 1 hour to a whole day. I have personally experienced this and my boss noticed my work load decreasing.
DECREASED INTEREST IN SEX – You may find yourself enjoying sex with your partner frequently and all of a sudden, you don’t feel like it, you think it’s just a phase but then it starts to last for a very long time, is it really a phase? No. It is a genuine problem and it does create issues in the relationship and it’s important that your partner knows that you do suffer with depression because of this. I don’t really know what you could do to make it better as I struggle with it myself, but that’s what the internet is for right? There should be plenty of websites to give you advice on the subject.
INSOMNIA – You find that a while ago, you had a great sleeping pattern, maybe you’ll go to bed at 9/10pm and wake up at a reasonable time the next morning. Then you find yourself not being able to sleep at night, no matter how hard you try, it just won’t work. You can lie there for hours with your eyes closed but never fall asleep. Because of this, you’re falling asleep at the time you would normally wake up, or maybe you don’t even feel tired the next morning and you struggle with this until you start hallucinating and just pass out. It’s definitely not healthy and I struggle with this on a regular basis. It’s the reason why I’m writing this post at 3:20am. Doctors say try not to have any contact with TV or a phone a few hours before going to sleep, don’t do exercise before going to sleep or eat or drink. But c’mon, who really follows them rules? The best advice I can give is to stay busy and active during the day so you can tire yourself out.
IRRITABILITY – This is a HUGE one for me, I find that some people just really fucking piss me off even when they haven’t done anything wrong. Just seeing their face or hearing their voice literally makes me want to go up to them and just hit them repeatedly until they’re on the ground. These thoughts aren’t healthy. Don’t worry, you’re not some secret psychopath. It IS normal to experience this with depression. It’s something you need to be really careful with because sometimes it is hard to keep your irritability to yourself and you can unleash hell on someone else with harsh words and actions and it can really cause ruptures in your relationship with people. You snap and you’re nasty to others, my advice is, when you can feel it coming on, just walk away, tell them you need some time to yourself, go to your room, go for a walk, cool down. Just get out of the company that you’re in. It may be hard to do at first but I have went years dealing with is undiagnosed, on my own, no support and no medication. It can be done.
Bare in mind that these are not all the symptoms that can occur, these are just SOME of them. But I do urge anyone who is suffering with these to please get checked and see a doctor, in the long run it will be beneficial to your health as it may not even be a mental disorder. It could be something physical that needs treated and even if it is mental, you can be diagnosed early on and get the help and medication you need to be stable and allow yourself to live, not only for others, but for yourself. Thanks for reading guys, stay positive 🙂